Final post

I didn't enjoy a single moment of this story. I found it to be incredibly dull and boring and I barely understood it. It was hard to get through and I kept dozing off because it grew monotonous at times. I understand that people have said things in the past that they regret now, but sulking over old mistakes isn't going to fix anything; neither does guilt. This man basically spent his life in the safest way possible and is now regretting it but if he was wise enough, he should realize that it's pointless to have regrets. How can he spend the remainder of his life sulking about how he is alone because his wife left him and he had a poor relationship with his daughter and a bad relationship with his old ex girlfriend which caused problems between him and his now deceased friend. He didn't even express sadness when he learned of Adrian's death and I doubt he even took value in his diary. He just wanted it because of some stubborn pride and knowledge that it was HIS possession therefor HE should have it. 

I understand he's ashamed over that letter that he wrote so many years ago and he's in remorse and wishes he could take back those words, but I doubt harassing Veronica and her presumed family would help make things better. In the end, this story leaves many unanswered questions. Veronica kept on telling Tony that he didn't get "it" and never will but what exactly was it that he didn't get? I know he finally understood whatever it was by the end, but he didn't explain it very clearly. Also, is Mary Veronicas sister or Adrian's? Why exactly did Adrian kill himself? Was it because he overthought life? And that equation he wrote out in his diary... Didn't make much sense to me. But then again, I wouldn't expect an equation of life to make sense because there is no way to express life through letters and numbers. 

What I think this story means, from what I could gather, is that although it's impossible to escape time, one should always find value in their life and don't take a path you will later regret. I know it's a stupid saying (YOLO) but it is true, you only live once. So why waste what precious time you have? Don't purposefully create enemies or say things you'll regret later on and don't try to make everyone like you either. It's impossible to make everyone happy so just be happy with yourself in the end. Otherwise you'll end up shameful like Tony and regretting every life choice you didn't make.