After the part about Veronica, I noticed a shift in the way
Tony talks about his life. Part One makes him sound like he was an indifferent,
yet intellectual and calm young man that never really let anything bother him
too much. Though that may be consistent throughout his life, it is safe to say
that age turned Tony into a character more relatable to the underground man. He
always refers to Adrian as superior to him; as someone who was more clever and
academic than he was, but never really saw this brilliance in himself. I
noticed many contradictions in Tony’s judgment of his life; one being the
feeling of nostalgia. He first says that he is not a nostalgic person, and then
takes this back and says that he is extremely nostalgic. I also think he may
have enjoyed his childhood more then he believes; or maybe his memories are
fooling him as they do to most people.
I like the fact that Tony keeps stressing that the events he
speaks of are only the way he remembers them and that they may have not
occurred in that exact way. This is something that happens very often when
people speak of their past, but I have never really heard anyone acknowledge
it. We sort of depress ourselves when we make things seem greater than they
actually were. Tony reminds me of myself sometimes, when he talks about his
ongoing nostalgia. Humans tend to live in regret, wishing they were in the
past. This is a rather depressing thought, and makes me sort of cynical. If we
are always living in our past, how will we ever enjoy our present? My opinion
on Tony changes from sometimes thinking he is depressed and bored, to other
times believing that he is really just indifferent and going with the motions.
Maybe, like the underground man, he is rendered inactive due to his inability
to choose a path to take. Or maybe I’m looking too deep into it. We’ll find
out.
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